(Week 10 Summer 2013 Renewing of the Mind Bible Study)
Since January 11th, I have been going through a tough trial. It is taking me deeper and making me more desperate for God than ever. This has affected my eating. I feel like I am FIGHTING to do the right thing so often. And sometimes I just stop fighting…until I start fighting again…until I stop fighting again…until I…well, you get the gist, I bet.
I know that God peels back layer upon layer of stuff in my life…like the layers of an onion. Like Eustace in CS Lewis’ Voyage of the Dawn Treader when Aslan had to tear off the reptilian skin from Dragon-Eustace, ripping him clean of his scales…the pain of it all was necessary for him to be free of what bound him. Having gone through the transformation, though there may have been a grieving, there was also relief.
I feel a bit like Eustace. Will I welcome God’s new thing that he is doing, even in this? Or will I tenaciously cling to food as if by going through a hardship, being so sad, beaten up emotionally, etc., I deserve “this one vice?”
So, this week’s topic of emotional eating, coupled with hopeless eating, is something that is near and dear to my heart. Please don’t for one minute assume that what I share with you here is theoretical in my life. Far from it. Chances are, I have been in or AM in the trenches along with you. Or BOTH. Like with this week’s study topics, it is both. I have seen the truth of living these principles, but I need to be reminded.
Monday
Do you ever feel driven to eat? You give in and you are still driven to eat? And does it go on until you are just too miserable to keep going or all the food is gone? What causes this? For many of us, it is overwhelming emotions. I think sometimes we are trying to literally make ourselves so miserable physically so that we can’t FEEL our emotions any more. Or maybe we are trying to punish ourselves for something…like for “being so weak” that we feel hurt, or sadness, or pain, or anguish or guilt. Using food for these reasons won’t solve the problems. We know that with our heads, but we keep eating anyhow.
- Visit Barb Raveling’s Emotional Eating Bible Study page. What does Barb say is true in her blurb before the “Journal” section?
- Can you add to your truth cards anything from this preliminary section?
- Can you journal about the situation that is causing you to want to eat? Right now, take a few minutes to think back to the last time you ate out of emotion. What was going on? How did you feel? What did you do in response to the situation? If you ate, what did you eat? How did you feel as you ate? How did you feel after you ate? Did eating help?
- Consider using some of Barb’s renewing of the mind tools if you aren’t already.
- Read the “Journal About the Situation — Not the Food” and add any truths to your truth cards. NOTE: I love Barb’s material, including her Freedom From Emotional Eating workbook, but it *does* have dieting vocabulary in it. Please be aware of that if you decide to purchase it!
- If you didn’t already, visit Barb’s other site at this link and go ahead and do the activities on that page. It is very helpful in moving through emotions that might lead you to eat outside of 0 and 5 boundaries.
- If appropriate, add more truths to your truth cards.
Tuesday
- Visit Barb’s Emotional Eating page again.
- Complete the Bible Study questions.
Wednesday
- Visit Barb’s Emotional Eating page again.
- Complete her emotional eating questions at the bottom of the page with an experience you had recently with emotional eating in mind.
- Add anything to your truth cards that you glean.
Thursday
I love what Barb says. This is NOT hopeless as long as we keep fighting lies with truth. That is KEY! We have to be willing to do the hard work!
- Visit Barb’s hopeless eating bible study page. Consider that Barb would write in her journal even after she had broken her boundaries. She shared with us in our first class that even doing this afterwards, she found it transformed her! Are you willing?
- Complete her Hopeless Bible Study eating questions.
- Can you add any truth cards to your deck?
Friday
- Visit Barb’s hopeless eating bible study page again.
- Complete her Hopeless Eating questions for your journal at the bottom of that page.
- Can you add any truth cards to your deck?
- Recap this week: What are you learning about emotions and how to take command over them instead of allowing them to lead you to food?
Added to my truth cards
Truth: when we go to Him for help, He gives us wisdom, comfort and character growth
When we go to food, we get 5 minutes of comfort/pleasure and a lifetime of being controlled by food. Who wants that?? That is not worth the trade-off!
Truth: eating from emotion does not solve problems. It does create new problems such as guilt feelings, weight gain, yucky feeling, that much longer til I realize my goals, separation instead of intimacy with Him, lost opportunity in that moment to call to God.
Oh wow…for some reason this is hitting me as especially profound. When I think of those few (it seems) times when I have really fallen upon his mercy and grace to resist temptation…and the character development that has come because of it…and then consider all the times when I didn’t do battle or “struggle” at all, but just rolled over…all the character development I *could* have experienced if I had gone to him instead…sigh! No wonder I am such a slow study! I don’t cooperate with my Teacher very often!