I was in the shower the other day...

[Raindrop]

I've loaded myself down with too much information about eating...which has in turn, caused more confusion about what to follow regarding my own unique situation. I say MY UNIQUE SITUATION, because everyone is different. That's why pastors have so many different styles and ways of teaching the word of God, because everyone receives differently. I have read a few postings on here about some who keep running to books to fix them and give them the magic key that will unlock their discipline and diligence and we are one in the same in that area. I am guilty...As much as I appreciate the many tactics and advice given in these books, the only one who can truly show us the way out of this pit is the one who created our body, God. So...I am looking to the only book I know right now that no doubt reaps results, the Bible. I want this hunger thing to be second nature, where I don't have to keep asking myself, "Are you hungry? How about now? Is that gas or true hunger?" I feel like THIS has taken the place of dieting in my obsession and my thoughts are consumed with questions all day long. Lord, let You be the only thing that I can't stop thinking about all day. May I be so overwhelmed by Your love and goodness and faithfulness that I forget all about eating until You remind me through my stomach. I don't want to think or eyeball portions anymore. Just show me how to be natural, the way you intended.

[Raindrop]

I started boxing again this past Monday...it feels great! I don't train as hard as I used to train, but I'm training! I stick to my own routine now, because I know how hard to push myself without consequences. Some of these trainers just want you to pass out on the floor before they are convinced you are working hard enough! I'm not working hard for them, I am working hard to preserve my body so I can keep working hard for God. Everyday, I have to remove my ego from the equation! I haven't weighed...so I'm not sure what my weight is these days, but I also am not focused on it. I realized I have to eat as normally as I possibly can following TW, because the moment I eat too little(where my tummy feels weightless, but not growling)it throws me into a binge. If I eat too much, I am stuffed and have a hard time digesting. It's like trying to find the balance of my weight on a see-saw.

[bkimberli]

Originally Posted by Raindrop

I've loaded myself down with too much information about eating...which has in turn, caused more confusion about what to follow regarding my own unique situation. I say MY UNIQUE SITUATION, because everyone is different. That's why pastors have so many different styles and ways of teaching the word of God, because everyone receives differently. I have read a few postings on here about some who keep running to books to fix them and give them the magic key that will unlock their discipline and diligence and we are one in the same in that area. I am guilty...As much as I appreciate the many tactics and advice given in these books, the only one who can truly show us the way out of this pit is the one who created our body, God. So...I am looking to the only book I know right now that no doubt reaps results, the Bible. I want this hunger thing to be second nature, where I don't have to keep asking myself, "Are you hungry? How about now? Is that gas or true hunger?" I feel like THIS has taken the place of dieting in my obsession and my thoughts are consumed with questions all day long. Lord, let You be the only thing that I can't stop thinking about all day. May I be so overwhelmed by Your love and goodness and faithfulness that I forget all about eating until You remind me through my stomach. I don't want to think or eyeball portions anymore. Just show me how to be natural, the way you intended.

Just wanted to say thanks for posting this, this has become me as well...God is showing me I already have all the knowledge and now all I need is Him and HIs Word and the rest will be wonderful! So glad to read someone else feeling the same way, I have the same prayer as you:

Lord, let You be the only thing that I can't stop thinking about all day. May I be so overwhelmed by Your love and goodness and faithfulness that I forget all about eating until You remind me through my stomach. I don't want to think or eyeball portions anymore. Just show me how to be natural, the way you intended. In Jesus Name, Amen

Kim

[Raindrop]

I truly appreciate the feedback Kim. I believe God is calling many of us to feel this way to get back to resting in Him for this promise. We are overeaters who don't know how to be strong in the area of eating and we think reading instructions will do the trick! That's what diet books really are! If that were the case, walk up to your drunk uncle and give him a manual that says, "Just stop drinking alcohol." Do you think he could that easily? NO. Because it's not just a bad habit like picking your nose...its a stronghold...and only GOD can pull down strongholds! Sheesh!! HEYYYY...I'm preaching good to myself!!

[ela]

Thanks, Rain, for all your posts here. I have gotten many insights and inspirations from reading them. And, Kim, the prayer you posted on this thread today is just beautiful. I am praying it for you and for me! AMEN!

[Raindrop]

I'm beginning to wonder if I REALLY want to lose this weight...If I lose it right now, will I lose my mind and start flaunting it all over town? If I lose it right now, can I handle that type of attention? If I lose it right now, will I be as dependent on God? If I lose it right now, will I be tempted to have sex? My thoughts for today...Do I really want to lose it right now?

[Julie]

I've wondered the same thing from time to time. Excess weight really can be protective...it's protective from getting too much attention, standing out, being attractive, having expectations that we can do things (like hike, and roller skate and the such). Weight has served as a barrier between me and actually living and risking...

It's a question that has to be addressed...otherwise the self-sabotage simply keeps happening out of fear that we don't recognize.

[Raindrop]

I had a dream last night of me thin, but I wasn't aware of it until someone in my dream pointed it out to me. I looked in the mirror, and behold, I had a slim and trim waist with a belt wrapped around it! Maybe the Lord is trying to tell me it has already happened in the spiritual realm, I'm just not aware of it yet, and that I will remain the same me when it happens?

[Raindrop]

Still trying to squeeze juice out of a dry lemon! That's all for now.

[Julie]

Love you Rain!